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Never Again

Sometimes,
Better is not a repair
but a severance,
a tearing away,
an obliteration
of all that hinders,
and a constant
responsible mourning
that yesterday
and all its blunders
will never again
come upon us…
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The Path of Maybe

Maybe,
if he looks deep enough
a champ can be found
in the heart of a loser
or a love so sweet
and so deep
in the misdeeds
of an abuser
Me, I damned
it all to hell
at 10
at a crucial moment
when
an open ear
had the power
to heal me
But in its place
a teacher’s
predictions
of gangs
drugs
and prisons…
much good can
unfold
when we’re so slow
to scold
and instead,
listen…
a heart
creates the hands
that mend
broken bridges
when broken
promises are
certain maybes
and we take
the lesser road
against the destined
path that was
deceptively paved
since we were babies
a road so twistingly
lonely
that everyone
perceives as crazy
A Path of Maybe
that journeys
into the
probability
that you and I
are worthy
of a love
that keeps
you smiling
and a love
that doesn’t
hurt me…
Maybe
everything
doesn’t need to be
so hard
and maybe
there is a judgeless
God
and maybe
maybe
maybe
something out there
of an incomprehensible
and familiar love
awaits me…
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A House of Horrors

In between us
and happiness
is a tailored door
sealing an ineludible
house of horrors
of screaming shut eyes
that remind us
not of how we lived
but how we died
at every hour…
The children
become what
they’re told
and the love
they are born with
grows cold
Pops loves
the bottle better
so they cry to
God in the form
of love letters
the master of vices,
the actress,
and bed wetter
A Family Dinner
of Dreams
bitterly overcooked
famishedly fighting
in pain,
and every cry overlooked
the mom shrouds
herself in sheets
of victimhood
and purges every
monster
so her young
will listen good
and the monsters
eat their hearts
so they’ll never
love as they should…
laughter burns
the souls in the
house of horrors
and sunlight never
pierces through
and every gash
and every lash
is a hope
in which good days
will come through.
I now revisit
and light candles
in each room
sing and dance
with the children
and tend to every
wound…
and smile
as they eat
unabashedly
from the bread of dreams
and sleep
and sleep
and sleep
so deep
to forget
what took them
in the
house of horrors…
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See

I’ve been living
so long
not knowing when I faded away
Perhaps the deadness we feel
is a failure to get closer,
to unheed the needed call,
to flap away from the center
of the soul’s marrow
are people really this rude?
or have they been
living so long
they can’t hear
their own cries
we die trying to
be something
we’re not-
act so alive
when we’re not-
and most tragically
go on breathing
giving and taking
everything but the
truth…
we don’t need
any revolutions
or political
or scientific
breakthroughs
or any other distraction
We don’t need
any messiahs
proclaimed prophets
or enlightened liars
we only need
to see,
to see one another
to keep on living…
-
י

Returning is
to love what has
never been seen
and to find one’s
heart at the
core of its Being
and no words can
tell of this wonder
when its embrace
tears the
stony heart asunder
and of all treasures
to ask in its presence
the only pleasure
is to bask
in its essence…
-
Tzaddick

In hell are infinite heavens
in trauma there is truth
alone I found a love unmatched
and in anger the Light of
‘I Can Grow’ unhatched
Every loss later births
a blessing
in falling the eyes ascend
and victims become victors
and the lonely become
so lovely
and the shy show
their wings
and everything once shunned
repulsive
shines and unifies
as the most beautiful things…
-
Ablaze

Sometimes, healing
means crawling out
of the sewage
of your mind…
escaping the false
beliefs and entanglements
of your captors
severing trickled down
tears and trauma
and starting over
leaving it all
behind
in more
than one instance…
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Night

Be afraid of nothing-
Life and Death
Joy and terror
all in one and the same,
within…
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Ode to a Voice

Be free
jump, express
not giving a fuck
talk without thinking
run and growl
howl at the moon
let go
be naked and scream
conquer everything
go deep into bliss
be fruitful and multiply
escape the prison
into freedom
be oneself
laugh proudly
and show chipped teeth
Love yourself
embrace it
lift the now
drop the past
lift and drop
explore new places
kiss new faces
sleep on roses
and bugs
and creepy things
hunt
read in peace
burn a good fire
pray
sleep
eat with people
eat alone
laugh so much
and cry a little
laugh away the pain…
-
Champ

I love my son
He is the expression
of what could have been,
what could be,
and what is to be….
Love in every dimension.